I can't do anything

I don't know if there's really something wrong with me because no matter how I tried to polish this relationship, it's really not working anymore. I am sooo tired! My heart and my soul are tired waiting that he will love me the way he used to love me. I do want this family so much but their dad is just so distant, I tried to be sweet to him in public, but he always avoid me to be near to him, he's been avoiding my touch... my kiss, my sweetness and that hurts me so much!

I'm not demanding anything from him, I don't even ask his whereabouts, but it's really painful that we're just destroying each other's own happiness by being together... I just want this pain to go away, I've been dealing with this for almost a decade now. I'm not praying so hard for God to give me the stars and the moon, I just want my heart to rest from sadness and my eyes to rest from tears.


listening to It's Over Now by Kyla

broken pieces

The most painful year of my life...
got close to someone, then I walked away...
got close again with someone, and I walked away...
someone offered me something beautiful, however I walked away...

I am hurting... but I understand my position right now and I respect their feelings that's why I don't want to take advantage of their vulnerability. And I know I'm not yet ready of anything as of the moment. God knows how much I love my kids but He also knows how much I wanted someone to take care of me at the end of a very stressful day, how much I needed someone to assure me that Falling in Love is beautiful, and being Happy is possible =)

listening to Where Do broken Hearts Go by Whitney Houston

my 28

Happy Birthday to ME!!!