It irritates me when I have to explain to other people my side just to clear what they think of my actions.
Even if I'm not doing anything against the rule of man and heaven, I still waste my time explaining to them that it's not what they think it is!!!. I should have not care... they can voice out their opinion for all they want and I should have just ignored them, but still it affects me whenever I am being teased with the opposite sex whom I just considered as one of my friends!
I created my blog based on my thoughts and what I feel at the time I'm creating the entry and post it in here. It doesn't necessarily mean that what I feel the time I created the entry is the same feeling I will have the next time I log in.
And since I don't have much time for chit-chat with friends I thought that an online journal will help me unleash what's bothering me or what makes me excited anytime, no pressure... no effort at all.
And I guess I'm just tired of being judged whenever I want to share something that they think is not right, though on my part I don't see anything wrong with what I have done.
Most of my friends are conservative, that's why... and unfortunately, I'm very liberal and very understanding. I even have friends who are mistresses, cheaters, lesbians, gays etc. and yeah! I'm their friend, though I don't tolerate their bad deeds, I'm still there whenever they need me. Well, that's me, I can be friend by everybody, though I only have one simple rule which is I won't judge you for who you are as long as you don't mess up with me. And I love being ME and I don't have any plans to change myself at the moment because I don't think that something is wrong with me.
Many suggested that I should just go out with my husband to be safe, but it's not that easy, that's why instead of bugging him to give me some of his time or complaining of his absence, I'd rather go out with my kids or friends (boys man o girls). Eh ganun eh!
I keep myself busy with so many things so I can ignore the idea that there is something wrong with my marriage. As long as my kids are happy and as long as I can still take it, I won't entertain the thought that there is really something to be fixed.
I felt bad for those people who don't seem to understand ME, who always insist that going out with guys are some sort of a sin, WTF as long as I'm not doing anything stupid, then I guess I'm on a right track
thinkin' of "Wasted by Carrie Underwood"
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At least you have this blog to vent your frustrations on. Sometimes, in my opinion, it's best opening up to complete strangers (like is the case with blogs because complete strangers read them) because they tend to not be prejudiced or judgmental with whatever it is the journal writer is going through.
Hayaan mo na sila, at least in your heart, you know you're not doing anything wrong. Cheer up!
Thanks Kadz, I really need that... I'm smiling now :)
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