broken pieces

The most painful year of my life...
got close to someone, then I walked away...
got close again with someone, and I walked away...
someone offered me something beautiful, however I walked away...

I am hurting... but I understand my position right now and I respect their feelings that's why I don't want to take advantage of their vulnerability. And I know I'm not yet ready of anything as of the moment. God knows how much I love my kids but He also knows how much I wanted someone to take care of me at the end of a very stressful day, how much I needed someone to assure me that Falling in Love is beautiful, and being Happy is possible =)

listening to Where Do broken Hearts Go by Whitney Houston

my 28

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

1st year

Yikes! I missed to greet my baby on the exact day when I introduced her to world, sorry Sweetie, Momi has been very busy... But it's better late than never!

Happy Birthday to my ever dearest Partly Hidden!!!

More years to come =)

getting tougher

I just need to loosen up a bit, but my mind and my heart are very uncooperative.

Each day is getting tougher, and as much as I want to control everything, there are few things that are beyond my capacity.

I've been dealing with stress since I gave in to my mom's request to marry the man who's personality is the exact opposite of mine. I tried to work things out, but sometimes I'm just too tired to understand what he really wants! And no matter how much I tried to ignore that I needed someone to take care of me, my helpless soul is shouting for attention and care...

I know that I have to be much tougher than who I am now, since i'll be back in school next month, and that means more stress, more pain, more challenge!

I'm just hoping and praying that God will give me back my Halo =(

IM BACK

Whoa!

I didn't realize that it's been 3 months since my last entry and time flies really fast... met new people, been into different places, tried some of the restos in town, encountered a LOT of trouble, and had experienced "bembang" sessions from time to time,

But no matter how many people tried to see me in a different way, I'm still ME... and it's very simple to describe... just Me!

wohooo!!! I miss blogging!!!

More entries to come